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Change of this time..

09 Mar 2011 Leave a Comment

by 7aboo in My ChitChats

This is out for the memory of my once upon dear friend…

6 years and in each i try to reach you way up there in hevean. In some I was even close.. but not this year. If anything is going to happen is that your coming down here..
I want you to come down here and look at me… look at where i stand and to what I aim for.
I want you to come down here…and see how i’ve grown to an 18 year old
Look at my graduation hat and diploma
Look if i sustained that same reem I was when we ran behind the ice-cream bus
See deep within me if i regained to that same girl, that had priorities and imagination of her own.
come down here and look where do i stand…
Among a best friend a sister and a family granted in the palm of my hand
i’ll tell you how its been since you’ve left to your heavenly land
I’ve done alot of things both good and bad…

I will not mourn this year instead i’ll tell you the tale of those past 6 years..
You’ll have to crash heavens gate and come down here to hear me
like I crashed hospital doors hoping for a straight line rythem beep to hear you
You’ll come down here and see how am happy… how i finally get to see things the way i used to.

So i’ll light up a candle and seat myself on the window porch.. and remember all the good times we had, all the good memories and dreams we’ve build…

so i’ll light up a candle and seat myself beside your memory on the same cold sand.we’ll reminisce about what before tonight and tomorrow had written ..
its 9th of march…this moment this night is yours but when the day comes the sunlight would be mine though

Fairytale my Reality.

28 Feb 2011 Leave a Comment

by 7aboo in My ChitChats

Publicity, it has its way to get there tentacles around our minds and pull’s without us feeling it until we and bang our head so heard into fantasies.Lemme demonstrate….
Take it when we were kids, it first started with snow white and her prince that awakes her from her poisonous death by doing something wierd… he puts his lips on hers ..and it was called a “kiss” and we had to turn our faces away cause mom would yell saying “3aaib”. So there was this sweet good deed in a wrongful act, but it was sweet. Then as we move off the cartoons and into kinder garden, we meet those dirty, smelly, messy, metal loving boys and there everything opposite of that charming, glossy hair, scarlet cheek, loving and dreamy prince. They tip the juice over you nd smile, they pull up your skirt and wiggle thier eyebrow, basically they compete over everything! (Which was exciting in some ways)

Then you start watching movies like spy kids and you start to understand that ‘bad boy” version, so you step into elementary school with confidence thinking you’ll take them down this time….and you find them all with thier gadgets. Psp’s, playstation, gameboys, magnets and nowadays black berry’s. They dont tease, fight or mock your colourful clips anymore thier glued into thier gadgets. So you think “hmm… *shruggs* ” 2 days later you get a peace of paper torn out from the skool notebook, scribbled within it 3 words ” I <3 U "…. You'll start smile to each other,share lunch, always be the first to be catched by him when playing hide and seek (cause ur the only one he's chasing).At the end, Report cards are out, you change school and you move on, no big dea!.

Then you go on to highschool and every1 has a boyfriend! ( by now we are watching "twilight" with a pinch of "white chicks")
"oh we went walking on the beach and he gave me his shirt…. smell it! oh god i miss him…*grabs phone and texts*
"You know no one ever made me feel like he did, he's just…."
"He fought with his best friend of 10 years because he was staring at me… he really loves me!"
"He said the 3 words to me *tears in eyes* and kissed me…. and said that he wants me to be his wife"

need I say more?

So you feel like your missing out, these girls are in there seventh sky, experiancing "True love" and your trying to solve a triganometry question or lsning to music and dwell over solving physics pass papers -.-" . Now at this point of your life you come to say that hey what about taking a risk, roll the dice and see who you'd get, Edward or a casanova.

Yes your most probably right, 99% chance of it is a casanova and casanova he was.

You see the thing is if you make this an essential, or build a place for it within you….thats a problem. because then you'd have that place as a blank or a gap for most of your life. Life is not about having the perfect guy, lovey dovey fairytales… or having a guy telling you your beautiful, a7bech ( i love you) to make you feel loved. He is a human as well as you are, he's not any better… you can make your self happy and worthwhile by your own words.
You know i dont really regret anything, because from both good or bad there is a lesson, if you fell into a swamp its only because you never looked underneath and you were looking so high that you fell. If you scored an A, it proves the sky is your limit, but if you subconsiously make a gap within you labelled by ” love, perfect guy”… your always going to feel empty. If you constantly felt guilty, it will turn to a need, an essential to fullfill that need and fill that gap. Before you know your miserable and sad because everyday passes by and this gap remains empty…. simple really kinda logical you see.

Anyways, as a conclusion all i wanna say to people out there, is that life has more into it other than love. Yes its beautiful in its own way, but so is the northern lights in norway, so does the last brush of paint that captured the exact image in ur mind, so does scratching something off ur to do list, so does benji jumping off khalifa tower!
So live life to its fullest, if you tumbled into love thats good but you dont place the orange cones infront of it and fold ur legs beside it and stop.

Together..

11 Oct 2010 Leave a Comment

by 7aboo in My ChitChats

Dedicated to my adoring brother…

A brother and a sister… Loving him completes me, i have to draw my mobile from my bag nd act like am reading smthin cause am giggling like a goof in the middle of the campus like ur right there getting the jiggy with it or smile just by remembering you. One thing abt my
hallucinations is i get to see u, nd if madness is the only way to see him i’ll stop the medication nd admit myself to a sanctuary. Everything i do has his image, his name, his memory feeh…
Agool miss him not just love him alot…nd i do but i end up missing him on that filled loving capacity…
I dunno if am making any sense bas its like this emotion that can’t b explain am challenging myself to do so.
U know what i mean ? *rubbing neck*

with love
Your lil sister…

A gift to you…

08 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment

by 7aboo in My ChitChats

I was soo excited..to reach the bookstore.
Fixed my shiela, took my purse nd decided to keep the bag in the car….

mom: you’ve got 15 min!

I stepped out of the car and hurried to the doors

The bookstore doors open and that blisfull aroma swifts upon you…..fresh unreaded books! But this time i wasnt looking for nicholas sparks love stories or sydney sheldom murderous tales. I was looking for one type of tale that might bring a smile on some1′s face…
I passed the fiction section section and stopped…

me: maybe i should just go through some…i would probably wont find anything

((2 min later))

I was sitting on the ground, laying out all the books i liked and trying to make a pick..

me: yarabee!! mom will go bullistic waiting bara3…

alright eenie meeenie minee moe it is then…
my phone rang continuosly and i knew it was here, waiting do pock my eardrums…

I ran to the section that I went there for in the first place, nagged on my mothers eyeballs out to take a turn and make a stop at the bookstore. All for this ….

I know i wont be able to give you this book now or maybe never cause where you are… its a hand and a thumb far away from where i am on the map.

Yes, i could’ve just googled the book… but what is a gift without a ribbon ontop huh =)
Plus it would be a nice addition to my bookstack, something to make me smile everytime i look at …

Dedciated to you ugly duckling xD